thoughts 9/27/17

i guess i just needed a place to express my feelings...

maybe i'm supposed to just be there for people
maybe my feelings need to be put behind me
maybe even though it hurts me, if its beneficial to others i gotta do it
maybe i'll feel inferior the entire time, but if it brings them joy then i need to put them first and me last
maybe it will constantly hurt
maybe my heart will race the entire time and my anxiety will go crazy
but if it means that i talk/help one soul with their problems, i guess its enough.
maybe....

simply139

hi friends!!!
    So like I told you guys before I have a new blog. Wellllll not really "I" have. A group of friends from my church and I have made a blog. It's based off of our faith in the Lord our Father, but we do have other posts about.... stuff. ;) You'll have to check it out to find out yourself! I would really appreciate it, if  you checked it out, we've (actually all creds goes to my one friend (K) who basically made the whole thing. He's super talented!!) worked super hard on it! We have only 4 posts up now and one that I wrote is scheduled to go up tomorrow!

blog: simply139

I have to say that I will probably be more active on that blog than on this one. I'm really sorry about that, but I just like the idea of a shared blogged and getting other's opinions. It's kind of like a new book, in the series of my life. :)

I hope you are having a fabulous night/day!  Have a great rest of your week!! Remember to smile, take a deep breath, and walk in love.

XOXO
S♥

words.

WOAH 2 posts in one day! I'm probably not going to do this a lot, but I just have some stuff on my mind and I really need to get the, out before I explode.

words.
words hurt.

Whoever cam up with the saying "Sticks and stones may break me bones but words will never hurt me." needs to reevaluate their life, and if that is still true then wow can I have their life.

Words have so much power over us, they can bring us down in a matter of seconds and then the right words can build us back up. And no matter how hard you try certain words can't be erased from your memory. Words can be like a bullet straight through your heart or a soft blanket over your body. Either way words are important, and it matters how you use them. The things you say to people whether it be a little comment or a huge paragraph effect them, even if you don't think it does.

I wish I could be positive and say "Oh but it shouldn't hurt you because God is the only one that matter and His words and his judgement are the only things that should effect you." And the truth is words are gonna hurt no matter what. Whether you have the strongest faith ever, when someone says something that hurts you, it stings. But that doesn't mean that we live in that stinging feeling. It will hurt for a long time, but with the strength we can find in our Lord and Savior we can get up from that pit that the words have placed us in. We can move one, it will just take some time.

The same goes for the people that are receiving our words. The words that come out of mouth, we can never take back. We need to watch what we say and who we say it to. And no matter how much we try to make up for what we said, it's gonna take some time for that person to forgive us and move on.

People need to except that, everything takes time.
I leave you now with some quotes that I feel wrap up this entire post.

"Be sure to taste your words before you spit them out."

~Unknown

"A meaningful silence is always better than meaningless words."

~Unknown

"Kind words can be short and easy to speak, but their echoes are truly endless."

~Mother Teresa

"When people let you down, God will pick you up."

~Unknown

And last but not least, and probably my favorite:

"Don't worry what people think... they don't do it much."

~Unknown

XOXO

S♥

New Beginnings

Hello Friends. I could go on and on about how sorry I am for not posting for literally YEARS, but to be completely honest I am not THAT sorry. I just haven't had the urge to share anything. I was kind of at a writers block/ basically a creativity drought. Lately my friends and I have been talking about starting I new blog/ Instagram page about what we are really passionate about. It got me thinking about how much I liked blogging and writing! I can't promise that I'll be super active on this page, but I hope that I will at least start posting a little. It's always good to have a creative outlet, and I feel like writing is one of mine. 

I will definitely be sharing the new blog once we actually sit down and make it, it's more of an idea floating around right now, but we are all very serious about it. I would love it if you all check it out. 

I decided to add this picture to this post because I think it has a deeper meaning.

  "We just keep on dreaming." 

The word just really stands out to me. We just dream. Nothing else. We are so used to dreaming and wishing that this and that would happen that we don't go and do it. And I understand a lot of dreams that we dream are about the future and that is a long time away. But we can start acting towards that future now. I dreamed about the simplest of things like this moment where I start blogging again, and I was constantly thinking about it. I finally looked at myself and said "WHATS STOPPING ME" and usually the answer is myself! I am constantly stopping myself from being a better me. From improving myself and being the person I want to be. This may not be the same for all of you reading this out there, but nothing should stop you from being you and doing what you dream of doing. God created each and everyone of us to hope and dream and be ourselves. With Him all of our dreams can come true. Anything is possible with Him. 

So cheers to dreaming, pursuing those dreams, and new beginnings. 

XOXO 

S ♥

Hello March Please Be Good!

PLEASE DON'T KILL ME! I KNOW I HAVEN'T BLOGGED SINCE LIKE THE FIRST OF FEB AND I'M SOOOO SORRY!

 

HAPPY MARCH Y'ALL! I don't know what I'm going to say or do with this post. I've kind of hit a dead-end, writers block, whatever you call it, I'm right there. I'm just so full of things that are bursting to come out. I just don't know how to express them. First though, How are all of you? I would love to know. I'm pretty chill (been using that word a lot and I have no idea why) these days. God has blessed me with a pretty good February. But let's just say that I AM SICK OF THE SNOW! I want spring, SO BADLY! I hate wearing a winter coat everywhere. 

 

I thought of maybe doing another music thing, but then again I can't. I kind of gave up Youtube for lent. And if you know me, you know that I am what is known as a YOUTUBE ADDICT so this is very hard for me. But I have been doing a very good job about it. I've started to waste my time on Netflix. LOL! Yeah I'm watching Saved By The Bell and One Tree Hill. :) I LOVE BOTH. Saved By The Bell is more comedic and One Tree Hill is a real drama, but it's awesome. I think that's it.

 

WOW TIME FLIES. I feel like it was just yesterday that I was stepping into this new year and now we're already 3 months into the year. That's so weird to think about. I'm almost done with my school year. Someone was telling me that we only have 15 weeks of school left.... WOAH!

 

SOOOO I made some edits on PicMonkey I thought I would share so hear yah go.....

 

I have bunch of others but they either have my face or my friends' faces so yeah........

ANYWHOOOO..... I gotta go practice guitar and yeah.... I will hopefully blog again this month. *FINGERCROSSED*

 

BE HAPPY!!! LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST!!!!

SARAH:P

 



 

music is life!

HELLO LOVELYS!!! I'm back!!!!!! O.M.G it's already February! HAPPY FEBRUARY!!!

 

YOU ALL SURVIVED JANUARY!! One of my friends tweeted: "We are now 1/12 done with the year". On like Thursday I was talking to my family, and being the weirdo I am, was trying to be a "motivational" speaker and I kept on saying "TODAY IS THE 28th OF JANUARY! THIS IS THE LAST WEEK OF JANUARY 2015 DID YOU EVER THINK OF THAT!!! DID YOU MAKE THE MOST OF THE LAST WEEK OF JANUARY 2015!?!" Now that I think about it, every single day is the only day you will get, like today is the only "February 1, 2015" I will ever get. THAT IS SO WEIRD! Ok enough with the deep stuff. I know I didn't post anything on Christmas and New Years and even blackfriday. SORRY!!! I just wasn't feeling it. I don't think I will be posting about it so yeah.... ANYWHO... Today I though I would recommend so songs that I've been listening to. I some of them are a little older but yeah....
HERE THEY ARE:

The Words By: Christina Perri

I love this song, it's so pretty and I LOVE the lyrics too. BTW the music video is amazing! I love Colin O'Donoghue! And Christina Perri's smile is beautiful!

 

Sugar (Cover) - The Johnsons

I absolutely LOVE the original song and these guys' cover is REALLY REALLY good!

 

Living Louder - The Cab

This song has a lot of meaning and is just really good!

 

Smile- R5

This song is really cute and I really like it! (Terrible description, SORRY)

 

Hopeful- Bars and Melody

THIS SONG IS SOOOO CUTE! And it has beautiful meaning to it!

 

Dear No One - Tori Kelly

Basically my life.

 

Elevation Worship

This band is a Christian Band that my dad introduced to me and I LOVE THEM! I have been listening to them all afternoon so yeah! CHECK EM OUT!!!!

This is one song I really like! It's called WE REJOICE!! :)

 



I think that is it! SOOOOO YEAHHH! Hopefully no school tomorrow! *FINGERSCROSSED* *PRAYING* BUT YEAHHH

 

BE HAPPY!!! LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST!!!

SARAH :P

 

PS. THANK YOU TO EVERYONE FOR THE LOVELY SUPPORT ON MY sad. POST I REALLY APPRIECIATE IT!! IT MADE ME REALLY HAPPY!!! 



sad.

*WARNING THIS IS A LITTLE EMOTIONAL*

 

 

so. lately I've not been myself. I was taking finals which went extremely well if you are wondering, but because of studying and homework I have been not going to lacrosse practice and on Thursday, when I was supposed to, I started to feel weird. I've been feeling like this for a long time when it comes to thinking about lacrosse and practice and stuff like that. My stomach starts to close in and I feel like its the end of the world, I start to worry and on top of that worrying, I become emotionally unstable. meaning I start being sadder, and just well to put it simple not good. I think that lacrosse and just general life is giving me a small amount of anxiety. I know anxiety is a big thing and what I am experiencing is nothing like what people with the actual sickness experience, but its the only thing that seems some what close to what I am experiencing. to put it straight anxiety means: "Stress can come from any event or thought that makes you feel frustrated, angry, or nervous. Anxiety is a feeling of fear, unease, and worry. " 

 

ever since I started high school, I have been feeling... alone. I know for a fact that i'm not alone, I mean I have so many people for me, but sometimes I just feel, like i'm annoying, clingy, and just overall too much. I want a perfect friendship so much I feel like I mess up everything else. I feel like I don't fit in. That's the thing about lax (lacrosse) all the girls on the team have their people. They all have their own friends and the one friend I have on the team quit. Now i'm alone and I constantly feel like the girls that are in my grade are judging me. I feel uneasy around them, but I enjoy playing lacrosse so yeah...

 

THIS IS REALLY SAD! UGHHH SARAH YOU ARE GOING TO RUIN SOME PERSONS DAY! LOL! TO END THIS ON A POSITIVE NOTE I HAVE A SONG THAT HELPS ME AND I WANT TO GUYS TO HEAR IT! (DISCLAIMER: ITS A CHRISTIAN SONG AND I HAVE ALREAFY POSTED ABOUT IT)

 

SOOO YEAH! I look towards God in these times, knowing that he is the one that will always be there for me! SOOOO YEAH! Hopefully I didn't just ruin your day! If I did I'm very sorry and here's a picture that will hopefully make  you smile!

(BTW THIS IS DARREN CRISS HE IS BAE!!)

 

This is probably one of the only posts that will be sad. I just really wanted to get if off of my chest, though I have talked to my mom and she just said it was life and that I will get through it and that she's proud of me. I just wanted you guys to know if any of you are feeling this way, there is always someone there for you whether you believe in God or not, he is always there. :)

 

BE HAPPY!!! LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST!!!

SARAH :P