sad.

*WARNING THIS IS A LITTLE EMOTIONAL*

 

 

so. lately I've not been myself. I was taking finals which went extremely well if you are wondering, but because of studying and homework I have been not going to lacrosse practice and on Thursday, when I was supposed to, I started to feel weird. I've been feeling like this for a long time when it comes to thinking about lacrosse and practice and stuff like that. My stomach starts to close in and I feel like its the end of the world, I start to worry and on top of that worrying, I become emotionally unstable. meaning I start being sadder, and just well to put it simple not good. I think that lacrosse and just general life is giving me a small amount of anxiety. I know anxiety is a big thing and what I am experiencing is nothing like what people with the actual sickness experience, but its the only thing that seems some what close to what I am experiencing. to put it straight anxiety means: "Stress can come from any event or thought that makes you feel frustrated, angry, or nervous. Anxiety is a feeling of fear, unease, and worry. " 

 

ever since I started high school, I have been feeling... alone. I know for a fact that i'm not alone, I mean I have so many people for me, but sometimes I just feel, like i'm annoying, clingy, and just overall too much. I want a perfect friendship so much I feel like I mess up everything else. I feel like I don't fit in. That's the thing about lax (lacrosse) all the girls on the team have their people. They all have their own friends and the one friend I have on the team quit. Now i'm alone and I constantly feel like the girls that are in my grade are judging me. I feel uneasy around them, but I enjoy playing lacrosse so yeah...

 

THIS IS REALLY SAD! UGHHH SARAH YOU ARE GOING TO RUIN SOME PERSONS DAY! LOL! TO END THIS ON A POSITIVE NOTE I HAVE A SONG THAT HELPS ME AND I WANT TO GUYS TO HEAR IT! (DISCLAIMER: ITS A CHRISTIAN SONG AND I HAVE ALREAFY POSTED ABOUT IT)

 

SOOO YEAH! I look towards God in these times, knowing that he is the one that will always be there for me! SOOOO YEAH! Hopefully I didn't just ruin your day! If I did I'm very sorry and here's a picture that will hopefully make  you smile!

(BTW THIS IS DARREN CRISS HE IS BAE!!)

 

This is probably one of the only posts that will be sad. I just really wanted to get if off of my chest, though I have talked to my mom and she just said it was life and that I will get through it and that she's proud of me. I just wanted you guys to know if any of you are feeling this way, there is always someone there for you whether you believe in God or not, he is always there. :)

 

BE HAPPY!!! LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST!!!

SARAH :P



 

 

OMG THAT'S TOTALLY ME!!!!

So I have so many photos from different tumblr's that totally describe me, so I thought I would share some of them with all y'all! ;)

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

These are just a few I found. I absolutely love things like this! They all describe me perfectly!!!

But yeah I know I few of them are sad, but they are definitely some that are funny! It's hopefully I good balance! If this post, though, made you kind of sad, I'm REALLY SORRY! Here's some funny stuff hopefully y'all smile!

 

 

 

 

 

 

:D I hope you like this post! Comment down below if you relate to anything! :D UGHHH I have midterms this week. PRAY FOR ME!! I hope I do well. I better get back to  studying though! PEACE Y'ALL!

 

BE HAPPY!!! LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST!!!

SARAH:P

 

 

 

 

 



ZOELLA!!

In my last post I was talking about how I was working on a video for Multimedia. WELL..... I decided to show you guys it! It's about Zoella (she's an Youtuber!) HOPE YOU LIKE IT!!!

 



 

BE HAPPY!!!! LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST!!!!

SARAH:P

MY ATTEMPT AT PHOTOGRAPHY!

JUST A FEW PICS I TOOK! (BRACE YOURSELVES THEY ARE PROBABLY REALLY BAD)

 

Yesterday afternoon I was sitting in my room working on a project for Multimedia and I took these photos on my phone. I know they aren't the best, but I like them.

 

 

BE HAPPY!!!! LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST!!!

SARAH:P

 

(Insert weird question that makes you look like an idiot)

SOOOOO COOL PEOPLE I'M BACK. And no this is not about Christmas or New Years, but I will eventually post something!! BUT, in my last post I had answered one of the questions about "How do you start an conversation with someone you've never met before?" and I had replied Hi, My name is Sarah (Insert weird question that makes you look like an idiot) and I thought I would share the story of when I did in fact ask a question that made me look like an idiot.

FLASHBACK TO 4 YEARS AGO

6th Grade Orientation

 

Now I had just moved to where I live now in 6th grade and I was excited yet scared to enter middle school. When I went inside the auditorium I went to my homeroom number and ended up sitting next to a girl. Now me being overly desperate/friendly and INDIAN. Asked her if she was Indian because (not to be racist) she was brown. (Notice how I didn't even introduce myself.) And the funniest part is that she was not... *FACEPALM* *NICE ONE SARAH*. BUTTTTT This story does have a happy ending because this person (who we will refer to as Macaroni) is now one of my BESTIEST FRIENDS EVEAH! She's even in my English class this year, WHICH IS AMAZING, and I will soon be in her lunch, WHICH IS EVEN AWESOMER. SO YEAH.... Just a little funny story, Idk if you guys will find it funny, I guess you just had to be there. I just thought I would share it. Hope you are having a wonderful evening/night/morning/afternoon WHATEVER IT IS LET IT BE GREAT!!!!

SAME BRO SAME!!!!

 

YASS JACK YASSSS

 

 



 

 

 

 

BE HAPPY!!! LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST!!!!

SARAH:P



BEST BLOGGING BUDDIES AWARD!!!!

Best Blogging Buddies Award

 

 

Lol! How do I get awards when I SUCK AT BLOGGING! LOL Anywho! Autumn (my blogging bestie) awarded me with this award so THANKIES!!

 

 

Rules

- You must make a post to show your award on your main blog.

- You must tag the person who nominated you in your post (also take the cute owl on the left with you!).

- You must nominate all of your best buddies, and those whom you want to become best buddies with, who, to your knowledge, have not been nominated for this award.

- You must ask your buddies at least 15 questions in your post.

 

- You must answer all of the questions your buddies ask you on your post.

 

Questions:

1. Have a night out or an evening in?

Definitely a evening in. Idk why I just like the idea of sitting my comfy bed with my laptop and have internet time. LOL I'm so antisocial.  

2. What is your favorite memory?

Well this is going to be long but its AWESOME! So I go to this Tamil (my native language) Church on Saturday and a couple of years ago, it was about the same time of year and we had just ended and it was lightly snowing. All the parents were cleaning the cars. It was really dark because we end around 8 and the only light was the light post in the parking lot and all the kids were playing under the light post and it was like a scene from a movie. It was so much fun just playing in the snow. It's like forgetting all the cares in the world and just twirling in the falling snow under a lamp post. :)

3. What does your perfect day look like?

Well I have many ideas of perfect days, but right now a perfect day would be a snow day, no school, no work, just me sitting in my bed with my laptop watching the snow falling in my neighborhood. (SO ANTISOCIAL ITS SAD)

4. If you could go back in time, what year would you travel to?

Now I have never thought about going back in time. I think I would either go back to 6th grade or when I was really little so I could see little baby me.

5.What would you like to eat for your last meal?

WELL THEN.... IDK? I really don't know. That's why (this is going to sound weird) I like the idea that we will never know what day is our last, that's why you have to seize that day and make it big because it might be your last. So every meal I eat I like to savor it (especially CHOCOLATE) because it might just be my last. WOW THAT GOT DEEP LIKE THE MARIANA TRENCH! LOL

6.What has been your best moment of this year (so far)?

Well I'm 8 days in the year and I guess the best moment so far was the 2 hour delays I have had for the past two days. It's so nice to be able to sleep in, even if it's only a couple of hours.

7.Worst gift you have ever received?

It's funny that you asked this because we had to write a prompt on this the first day we got back (which was Monday) and I had to make mine up because I couldn't think of one. And I still can't think of one. So I will just the use the made up one... expired chocolates. LOL

8.Favorite song lyric?

Oceans- Hillsong

Enchanted- Taylor Swift

Hello My Name Is..-Matthew West

Never Be - 5 Seconds of Summer

 

9.If you were given a day without any of you everyday responsibilities, what would you do with that day?

Well.... I feel like school is probably one of my only daily responsibilities, and it causes the rest like homework and such. I would probably sit on YouTube the whole day, or I would go to school but just hang out with friends instead of go to class.

 

10.Describe yourself in 3 words.

I was thinking long and hard about this question, and I thought it would be fun if you (the reader) would comment 3 words to describe ME!

 

11.What's a skill you would like to learn and why?

I would like to learn many skills/things. I would like to learn how to play the bass, because the bass is a pretty cool instrument. I would like to learn how to edit photos and make them look cool like this:

I would also like to learn... Ummm I think that's it. Ohh I want to edit pictures because I think they are super cool and I want to be able to make my own.

 

12.Describe the perfect pizza.

Well, it's pretty simple, I LOVE pineapple on pizza, so it would a pizza with pineapple, cheese, and chicken, a lot like the pizza I just had. I'm not a very picky person and I don't really know if NUTELLA would taste good on pizza.

 

13.What question do you hate to answer?

Those questions, that your teacher calls on a random person to answer and I always get the hardest question and it's so annoying.

 

14.How do you start a conversation with someone you've never met?

Hiya! I'm Sarah! (Insert weird question that makes you look like an idiot)

 

15.Favorite word.

Quaint Or Cheeky

LOL (BTW That's Jack Harries MY BAE LOL I'm weird)

 

 

AND NOW FOR WHO I NOMINATE! I do not know a lot of bloggers so I have 2 people!

Reese

Carissa

 

Questions:

1. What is the best compliment you have ever received?

2. If you could switch bodies for a day with anyone in the whole world who would it be?

3. If I gave you a puppy what would you name it?

4. First word that comes to your mind. NOW!

5. OTP? (If you don't know what it is LOOK IT UP)

6. Celeb Crush?

7. Favorite quote?

8. A joke to break the ice?

9. If you could dye your hair any color what would it be?

10. Who's your role model?

11. When you were really little what did you want to be when you grew up?

12. What would you do if your crush asked you out?

13. Favorite thing about winter?

14. Guitar or Drums? ;)

15. Who do you think deserves more attention then they do?

 

If you (the reader) want to answer some of these questions down below!!!

 

BE HAPPY!!! LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST!!!

SARAH :P

 



MERRY BELATED CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY BELATED NEW YEARS!!!!!

NEW YORK December 26th

 

I'm extremely sorry. It's January 3rd and I still haven't posted about New Years let alone Christmas. UGHHH I suck. I do have an excuse, and I must admit it's not a bad one. I had family over. That's that. My uncle, aunt and their little son were over and so was my cousin who is going to college near where we live. All I can say was that I was very blessed this holiday season. We went to New York, the day after Christmas (26th) and MAN it was cold. I was not expecting it and just wore a sweatshirt, but I was still comfy in my hoodie.

 

I didn't do much for New Years. Our family would usually go to our church for an all night prayer service, but my little cousin is only 2 and wouldn't be able to sit through that. So we just stayed at home and ended up praying as a family, which was very blessed. Blessed is not the word I was looking for, but it's the best that I could come up with.  We ended up praying until 12, so it was like a New Years party but not really.

 

I'm going to do other posts on like what I got for Christmas and like looking back on 2014, so keep on checking for those, but I think that's it for this post. :)

 

BE HAPPY!!! LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST!!!!

SARAH :P